You have no control over anything outside of you. The only thing you can control is how you react to all that is going on. And if you really study that sentence, it can be a hard pill to swallow.

Reiki has taught me once more that I don’t heal others. I ask for healing energies to help them on their healing journey. But it’s way more than that. Asking Reiki energies to help someone is spiritual and helps me to have a deeper connection to Reiki energies. I am tuning into their higher self and asking their spirit to help them with their trials and tribulations.

What has bothered me the most is when the world has a sick medical system and we feel like we need to fight for our very lives. There is no reason this should be happening. But as we are seeing the demons who were placed in a position of control, causing such horrible destruction, it is becoming mostly a nightmare to find our way back to the normalcy of normal health.

Here is another scary thought as well, as the Democrates cry out their battle cry of democracy, have you ever looked up the definition?? If you read the definition, the politics and government, the belief in freedom and equality between people, or a system of government based on this belief, in which power is held by elected representative or directly by the people themselves, politics& government. But we the people are not in control. We have a two-party system that is taking advantage of our laziness and taking our rights away. I am a constitutional republic believer. There is no more democracy, or what I like to call it demoncrazy!

It has become a chore, searching to find peace and happiness. Which is a crime! What a shame that the very thing we should not have to fight for is the thing we have to fight our government for.

I realized this morning that I can’t control anything but how I react and what I do in my life. It is our job as compassionate, caring humans to educate and share our experiences and what we are learning. I can control what I eat, how I think, how I exercise and handle the stresses in life. I can feed my animals the best and provide them with everything they need to be healthy and happy. Set boundaries, protect, love, honor, trust and respect myself. I can share my thoughts and discoveries. Yet, I can not control others, and I can’t make my beloved animals live longer. I am not in control of anything! I can only control how I react to the circumstances.

My meltdown brought up a lot of things I had stuffed down deeply, hoping at the times it would disappear. But it doesn’t go away. It sits there festering until you acknowledge.

The past is a chapter you lived, maybe not what you think it should have been. You should never judge what you did. If you’d known better, you would have done things differently. There is no way you wouldn’t, unless you continued to do something the same way over and over. Then you really need to get connected on a deeper level with yourself.

There is a lot of hurt that is coming to the surface, things I have pushed deep down in my body. But why do we stuff the hard, heart breaking parts of our lives deep within the shadowy part of the mind? It is not easier to do that, yet that is what we do. I also think it is a lack of care and compassion for self, since we are not taught how to care for ourselves. How can you give what you have never experienced?

There was a time when we knew instinctually what our purpose was in life. Now we are a humanity in decline. There is no family value, there is no family unity. We are not even individuals. We are a mass of people who are confused. We wake up shit, shower, eat and go to work or spend time on SM. Then we rinse and repeat. So wonder there are so many of us confused, depressed and having melt downs. Then we look for some relief and here comes the overeating, alcohol abuse, and pharmaceutical addictions.

I have for as long as I can remember hated Spring. When I took the time to ask myself why, the answer came bubbling up. I had been in a terrible accident and by the time I had healed from it, Spring had come and gone. So spring was a reminder of something bad I had suppressed and forgotten about consciously. Yet, subconsciously, I know something had happened and there was a negativity that comes back every year, and I would become depressed. Eventually, the memories come up and we have to face them.

Life is not meant to be terrible, it’s just sometimes terrible things will happen. If you are of present mind, you will step back and ask why. When you can look up from your tv, put your phone down and really listen to yourself and spirit, you find a brand new world open up. There is always time to go touch grass, listen to the birds, put your feet in a cool stream, and talk to yourself.

The biggest lesson I have learned from my meltdown was how disconnected from self I had become. Being mindful, compassionate, and caring brings me back to harmony and balance.

Happiness, by Thich Nhat Hanh: Relaxing and calming the body as we breathe in and out, we can already experience joy and happiness. This is the joy of being alive and being able to nourish the body at the same time as the soul. To sit knowing that we don’t have to do anything but breathe in and out in awareness is a great happiness. Countless people bounce about like yo-yo’s in their busy lives and never have a chance to taste this joy. Don’t worry if you don’t have hours to dedicate to sitting. A few moments of sitting and conscious breathing can bring great happiness.

What Would Your Heart Say