Balance and creation

It was just yesterday that I deleted my Twitter account. I had been struggling with the addiction to go on and find everything that was negative. I got into a habit of expressing my disapproval of all that I saw. But I was becoming drained, and depressed, and becoming very fear driven. I took a day off from the twitter and found the sunshine and drank lots of water and herbal teas. I sat with my feelings, faced the fears and, like a wrecking ball, things shifted. Balance came back to me. I could hear my thoughts, see my actions, and become mindful of what I was doing.

Of course, it didn’t help that I have been snacking on some corn chips and had a huge inflammatory response. Ouch!! I forgot to love, honor, respect and protect myself.

“I am thankful for my struggles because without it, I wouldn’t have stumbled across my strength.”

Don’t expect her to paraphrase her life for you; she was born to be a story. And if you can’t understand that, then perhaps she’s beyond your reading level. (Johny Ox Poetry and every emotion).

Strong women never give up. We might need a strong cup of tea, a good cry, or even a day in bed, but we always come back stronger. “Life rules.”

It’s easy to be sucked into the narrative of right and wrong. I had written a blog earlier, but it was so depressing, angry, full of frustrations. But I have changed it since becoming more mindful and present. Just taking a day off from social media made me more optimistic and happier. I had more energy and felt like the darkness fell away. Twitter has become a place of the left and right to fight, whine and cry about everything. Yes, there are bad things happening, but we can choose not to be a part of it.

It sucks but, the old adage to mind your own business rings true in some of these situations. I’ve posted things and shared things that anger me, but they don’t affect me. If they affected me, I would do something about it. I have to trust I will do what I must when the time comes for me to act in a situation that affects me. But to spend hours , crying over the injustice coming from those who are addicted to the very drama they share made me physically sick.

I was super depressed, fear driven and made up excuses. I was doing something right by sharing the fear porn, when it was just sharing fear porn. We all know the problems, yet I don’t see anyone doing anything about the problems. Yes, there are “wannabe women” (biological Men), yet biological women are condoning and taking part in the BS that is being propagated on MSM. These biological women are enablers and have a choice. Parents who take their kids to see grown men dancing sexually in front of their small children is a crime, and it will catch up to them. I can’t make a parent care or be a protective parent.

There are overweight people that dance on TikTok and have no self worth in themselves. They are confused and have been the subjected to the mentality of no accountability. I can’t make them stop eating the garbage they do, but I can share healthy ideas on food choices. I can live as an example. But I can’t heal others, plus it’s exhausting being another’s consciousness. I don’t want the job of taking over for others thinking, in fact I quit!

I have a website full of good choices that I practice and live on every day. It’s your choice to do what you want.

“Self Love… many people see self love as spa baths, fancy coffee, and expensive material objects. What do I see self love as? I see self love as getting up when you don’t feel like it. Still getting in a workout when it inconveniences you the most. Apologizing to someone when you mess up. Healing your shadow when it hurts the most. Holding yourself to the same standard you would like everyone else around you to be. Leading by example. Delaying instant gratification to gain the things you TRULY want in the long term. That other stuff? It is cool too, but just know that material things fade. Soul growth and discipline does not.”

I am tired of worrying. I’ll do the right thing for me, because I love, trust, honor, respect, protect and fight for myself. My life is great. I have so much to be grateful for. So I’m done, I’m out, I will continue to send positive energies, lead by example, trust that Spirit will help those who are lost.

I had the best day playing in the sunshine, drinking water and teas, listening to old friends and doing little things. I fed the chickens, ate good food and I felt renewed.

“Ravenwolf be a voice— I’m a warrior, a survivor, a fighter. I;m not immune to fear or worry – I just keep going in spite of how afraid I am sometimes. I find a way to get it all done, somehow.”

“You will have good days, bad days, overwhelming days, too tired days. I’m awesome days. I can’t go on days. And every day you’ll still show up.”

“To plant a garden is to believe in tomorrow.” —Audrey Hepburn

“She made broken look beautiful and strong look invincible. She walked with the universe on her shoulders and made it look like a pair of wings.” Ariana Dancu.

I meditated and found I don’t need anyone to agree with me. Life has its difficulties. People will be people, and I’m not responsible for their garbage. I don’t have to take their garbage either.

I found my mojo, my creativity, Spirit and peace. I’m going to do it all over again tomorrow, and the next day and the next day…

So find your balance, draw your line in the sand, trust yourself, let go of the crap, trust in Spirit. But most of all, trust you will rise to the occasion and do what is right and needed.

Hidden fact… Humanity is at war. This war is not fought with bombs or guns, but with chemical and lab-made foods. The entities behind this know that the healthier your body is, the stronger the connection with your soul. Therefore, many believe it is a spiritual war which we are fighting which seeks to erode our spiritual connection to make the population easier to control. This shows us the importance of avoiding and removing toxins from our diet and returning to natural foods.


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