Squeaky Shoes

“The Resurrection—- Some people live as though they are already dead. There are people around us who are consumed by their past, terrified of their future, and stuck in their anger and jealousy. They are not alive; they are just walking corpses. If you look around yourself with mindfulness, you will see people going around like zombies. Have a great deal of compassion for the people around you who are living like this. They do not know that life is accessible only in the here and now.

We must practice resurrection, and this is an everyday practice. With an in-breath, you bring your mind back to your body. In this way, you become alive in the here and now. Joy, peace, and happiness are possible. You have an appointment with life, an appointment that is the here and now.” A paragraph from the book (Your true home, the everyday wisdom of Thich Nhat Hanh)

I have been walking around like the living dead, heartbroken by the past and current events.

Spirit has been helping me to deal with this. I have had so much pain and can not get over my depression. When there is dis ease there becomes the disease. For days I have walked around wailing and distraught by the losses of the past. My heart hurts so much that I feel like I would be better off dead.

The world has changed in such a short time; it seems. The serpents and demons getting control of the human race. We the human people have allowed this by waking around unmindful and dead. I am finally seeing how my past has taken over and I am waking to find I, too, have become one of the walking dead.

Why we become the walking dead, I believe, is a coping mechanism that we do to help us deal with the pains of our past or present moments.

As I walked around like a lost ghost, dealing with my past heartbreaks, I was desperate to ease my sorrows. What I was doing was not working. Self-medicating and trying to hide from the pain had me in more pain.

So there was a day when I had left my clogs outside on the firewood box and they melted in the 100-degree day we had. Which I will say is normal this time of year. But the shoes were a mess, and I had to replace them with a new pair. I got a unique brand that was on sale. They showed up the other day and I put them on. As I walked around the house, they fit nicely and I was happy with my choice.

I went outside to put some wine bottle trees up in the front yard. As I walked around, those shoes became musical. Those shoes became quite rude, I tell you. A furp here and a smerp here and I found myself laughing so hard. The more I walked, the louder and ruder they became. My husband made a comment that he couldn’t take me anywhere. I walked around laughing and smiling.

There came a big change in my attitude that day. As I walked around furping and burping and smerping. I giggled and felt so light and free. Those shoes became a wonderful gift. The gift of letting go, and laughing.

As the paragraph at the beginning of the blog stated, I had fallen into the zombie apocalypse. My heartbreaks are too much to bear and understand. Sometimes we need to walk away smerping and furping and allow things to be at those times. I can’t change the past, but I can change how I am today.

With all that is going on and the evil that has taken over the world, is it no wonder we find ourselves feeling down? But there is one thing we have that is so powerful and such a tiny word is used to describe it. We have hope; we have hope of dreams coming true, that humanity will see and destroy the evil we have allowed in among us. There is always hope for a better day.

I once read a book where the author described hope as nothing, that it meant nothing. I quit reading that book and I donated it to the library. I should have thrown it away. But it left a lasting thought and I feel like I gave up on that super powerful word. Hope! What a good feeling word!

Hope; is to desire with the expectation of obtainment or fulfillment. Having hope means that you have absolute faith that everything will work out. I feel like that is how hope is used to its fullest.

Feeling hope has changed for me. No more do I hope things will be, but I am seeing hope as I am well on my way to getting what I want. I am empowering my desire by hoping.

“If you can get more into a confident expectation, hope will just be a powerful vehicle you once used to get you there. Words by Lyana Pearson.

I will leave you with these inspiring words by Thich Nhat Hanh; “Be there truly. Be there with 100 percent of yourself. In every moment of your daily life. That is the essence of true Buddhist meditation. That is why I like to define mindfulness as the energy that helps us to be there 100 percent. It is the energy of your presence.”

Love and light


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