Working through the mountain of depression

Matthew 17:20
And He said to them, “Because of the littleness of your faith; for truly I say to you, if you have faith the size of a mustard seed, you will say to this mountain, ‘Move from here to there,’ and it will move; and nothing will be impossible to you

Source: https://bible.knowing-jesus.com/topics/Faith-Moving-Mountains

I have been struggling a lot with my broken heart syndrome and the depression that has always been there in my life. I have been able at times to let it go and move on. But since the Covid bullshit, I haven’t been able to bounce back like I once was able to. The Covid debacle exposed the lies we have been living in for generations. I have noticed these lies myself but struggled to help others recognize them without appearing irrational.

The conspiracies;

A. Sky spraying poison

B. Harmful frequencies

C. GMO SEEDS

D. WEED POISON

E. Toxic Shots

And then the tearing down the very Love 💕!

I have tried to move on from the heartbreak of my kids being sucked into the demonic cult, which has taught them through the public schools that it is okay to bully others into believing in what they believe in. And if you don’t, the satanic cult seems to think it is alright to threaten, harm, and even destroy the very foundation they were raised in. This situation is truly depressing and confusing.

The boomers, who comprise the majority of our parents, are so mentally unstable that engaging in a common-sense conversation with them is impossible.

I struggle with depression and the challenges this world seems to initiate every blooming day! There doesn’t seem to be an ending to the ever-repeating cycle this world seems to be in. I go to bed with the same prayer. Thank you, God and Goddess, for getting me through another difficult day. I wake up with the prayer, “God and Goddess, please help me to get through this day.” There are days I do not want to wake up. I cry and wish I could go home (and I am not suicidal). The demons have taken control of this Earth school, which is not a place I call home. I hold this belief because I am aware of it, I’ve see it, and can feel it!

As Easter is coming up, we are reminded, those of us who pay attention to our loving God, that there was a man born into this world who was sent to help us understand this school we are in. Yet, the teachings have been messed with, and the meaning of the son of God has been diluted. In fact, the demons have tried to teach the masses that Jesus was as delusional as they are.

When we are mindful, we see these things. When we are in our heart, we hear from our spirit guides and God himself.

“The fact that Jesus is both the Son of Man and the Son of God is not difficult for a Buddhist to accept. We can see the nature of nonduality in God and the Son and God the Father because without God the Father within Him, the Son could never be.”

The author goes on to say it is important to look deeply into every act and every teaching of Jesus during His lifetime and to use this as a model for our practice.

But here’s where I struggle: people have tampered with the Bible, changing the words and rearranging the meanings. So I asked God, “How do I know what the truth is?” His answer: The answer is in the heart!

And the Demons know this! What better way to break you than by breaking your heart? They are the ones who trap us in a never-ending cycle of hopelessness and bewilderment. So I have had to find like-minded hearts to find the word and the life of the Son of God.

Jesus lived exactly as He taught, so studying His life is crucial to understanding His teaching. I agree with the author: “The life of Jesus is His most basic teaching, more important than even faith in the resurrection or faith in eternity.” Of course I know there will be many who disagree. And that is fine. But I am not you, and you are not me.

My battle with depression has taught me that I must find my own way in this world, and those who try to stop me are more lost than I am.

I want to know what Jesus felt. The movie closest to that personal depiction is “The Passion of Christ” by Mel Gibson.

You understand that is Jesus is both the Son of God and the Son of Man. It is deeply ingrained in your heart that your purpose is to unite mankind with their heavenly Father. Jesus knew he would be prosecuted, ridiculed, and then later put to death. Jesus healed the masses, cared for the forgotten, and struggled with his doubts and insecurities. He was a man, so I know he struggled with the human he was.

The church has been hijacked, and the next author I quote from made my heart sing. As he writes that Jesus was here to die or pay the price of our sins, we are now indebted. But why? Why would I be condemned to be a sinner? A baby is born a sinner, and I must have a savior to save my damned soul. Why? And then we have to have others explain why.

“Transaction-based theology required mediators to explain it. It needs administrators to apply its benefits. It creates dependency on the institution. The freely given forgiveness Jesus taught creates no institutional dependency, requires no theological explanation, and needs no administrative system.”

Is that why, in the thick of the pandemic, the churches went quiet? So many of us were left to struggle and try to gain footing once we became aware of the deception. Where were the institutions then?

So what would happen if we, the mindful and the awakened, realized that Jesus died not to pay for sin but to demonstrate divine love? Are we wrong?

So the whole story was not about changing God’s mind about us but about changing our minds about God. It was not about enabling God to forgive but about revealing that God already forgives.

God was in Christ, reconciling the world to himself –2 Corinthians 5:19

“Not God being reconciled to the world. But the world being reconciled to God. The cross demonstrates the lengths to which love will go–not to purchase forgiveness, but to reveal it was always available.

“God is not demanding suffering before forgiving. God is revealing love by suffering with us.”

Jesus didn’t die to change God. Jesus died to change us…

References: The author (<3 EKO @EkoLovesyou), thank you! Author Thich Nhat Hanh (living Buddha, living Christ).

“The revolutionary truth is simple: God has always forgiven. Jesus revealed a different reality.

As I continue to tackle my depression, I am making progress every day. And the more I dive into my heart, the closer I find myself to God. I have never lost God, but I have rejected those who wanted to teach that God was judgmental. I have only ever witnessed and been loved by an all-loving God!

To me, some force has taken control of the world. It hates us so much that it took our Savior, who wanted us to understand how much we are loved by our Father in heaven, and distorted the teachings. Will we ever know why? Yes, I do believe we will, and very soon, in fact.

I would warn that those who charge money for salvation, condemn others, and use scare tactics be those who you stay away from.

The lessons depression has taught me are so tough at times. It hasn’t helped that our world often seems to work against the good of humanity. Our world is resetting, and that’s a good thing. But it is also a tough time. What we once knew was truth is now not the truth; what once was a conspiracy theory is now the truth. The same drama repeats with different actors and on different days—for years! Good gravy!

Today will be better, for now, but I am sure it will change. It will change for the better, or I will find myself running back into the arms of God and wishing I was home. And that’s okay! I am learning to lean on and rely on God and Goddess more and more.

I am running from the evangelists, preachers, ministers, and those who say,

“If you are not saved by the blood of Jesus Christ, you will be damned to hell,’ for it is not only judgment but condemnation. If you ever hear this …run, for they truly do not understand the meaning of Christ’s teachings.”

(Sylvia Browne The Mystical Life of Jesus)

These things I am letting go of help my depression go along with them. It’s because they are lies, and my Heart knows that! Mindfulness! Awareness!

Keep going, keep trying. You’ve got this!

Baroness Heart 💜